nothing is going to last forever

Today when i came back home from my English class, i did not feel good. I felt demotivated and overwhelmed. To be honest, i knew that i had a lot of work to do and i was checking the time constantly to see how much time i got to finish my works. However, after resting a little and eating dinner all the negative feelings wore off and i felt focused and energetic agian. What i am trying to say is that nothing is going to last forever. Especially emotions because they are temporary and we do not know the source of them, let alone fix them. 

Nevertheless, i have to admit that i am feeling on edge and out of control today. Everytime i tell myself i can plan to do something and make myself momment, in that very moment i get a rush of dissappointing feelings and become desperate. I tell many lies to myself so as not to face my problems and figure them out. I tend to tell myself that your not strong enough to overcome this difficult situation, you are not adequate and capable of organizing your life. You are a looser and your are bound to fail in every aspects of your life. However, i know they are not true, i am just doing that to justify my shortcomings and mistakes. Although making mistakes and wong decisions is inevitable, i want to remind myslef that i can at least try and put some efforts into that in order to increase the quality of mylife and give meaning to it. I will not loose anything, it is not going to make things worth than they are. I wish i could be more honest to myself. The more straightforward my attitude are, the less confusion i face. It is hightime i manned up and took the responsibilty of my life. From now i decide to dedicate my actions to my well-being and progress and i promise myself that i will do anything to make my life more valuable and admiring.