self-hatred

I know i hate myself somehow. I can feel it in many situations. It's not so bad although it is a bit annoying, when you try to make it disappear. It wont go away. It just become bigger and frustrating. I'm OK with it. I am who i am, I wish I hadnt been like this. Let's face it.Life is not what you wish. I usualy feel shameful when I'm talking about myself and I can understand it. It's difficult to me to show my feelings and express them. However I know i need a remedy for this. I guess these feelings and thoughts are with me. I can them. in spite of all of them I wanna do what i want. I respect my inner child my background. I have them It doesnt mean that I am those thoughts. So i wanna live life to the full.